A Dateless Wonder

2006-11-29T11:29:00.000-05:00

Hmm...What to say in the realm of updates to my loyal base of readers. :p

I've moved out of the ol'homestead. That's okay. I can now walk to work. I have a chair and a table and a bed. It's most rockin'. I have a TV now, too, but no cable. I'm enjoying that though...It limits my TV watching. No internets either. No computer. Oh, I'm so Amish. I've been reading. It's remarkable. Pablo Medina is good. So are all the graphic novels I'm catching up on.

I've been eating very poorly. I had chips for dinner on Saturday.

The romantic world...Thou art but a desert. I wish you were a dessert. But then that would make me stressed. Oh, how clever I've become.

The j-o-b is most assy most times. I feel like my brain is in hibernation. Packing boxes and stuffing envelopes will do that.

I think that my virginity has provided me with an amazing amount of mental clarity.

I stil have a sense of humour.

Only assholes (or the chronically depressed) like to complain when they have their [physical] health and [relative] happiness and a ticket to Paris for December.

I signed up for a creative writing course that starts in January.

2006-10-17T15:07:00.000-04:00

Hmmm.
Blah.
I wish, I wish...I knew what to do.
Blah.

Long time, no nothing

2006-10-12T21:24:00.000-04:00

Hello, hello...

Since the last time I blogged which was long, long ago...So long ago that I could not for the life of me remember my userid or password for Blogger!

Some things have changed...Some things are changing...Somethings changed and then went back to the status quo! Oh, the humanity. I don't know if anyone still reads this thing...junky? a*c? And then all the random people who are in a similar situation and Google "dateless wonder" and hope they find some kind of support group...There's not one, but we should seriously consider creating one. I'd be all over that. Just let me know.

Anyways, I was going to create a list of events so that I remember stuff...

I met someone online and we seemed to hit it off...And there was an odd on again off again start even at the beginning...But then it fizzled...I got dismissed by email (EMAIL!). I got my first kiss out of all of it. Oh! First kiss at 24! Ay! There's hope for all of us isn't there...?

I got full time, permanent employment in a job in the right field. My boss is an unfortunate turd burglar, but what can you do?

I turned 25.

I'm moving out in November. I'm leaving mommy. I am weeping inside. Weeping.

The Internet Boy who dismissed me suggested that we go to an event together last weekend.... if I wanted company...This was 2 months after said dismissal ...So we went together...And it was fine...Not too awkward...Maybe we can be friends? Admittedly I am still holding a torch for him and hoping for more. I think I'm screwed! SCREWED!!!!!!! We're going to another event next week. I don't know what I'm doing.

Maybe you have insight?

Peace,
DW

Open Letter #2

2006-04-12T23:49:00.000-04:00

Dear DW,

Another job-related open letter. You need to quit job #2. You are bored there. You're not learning anything new. BTW, you are bored. Remember, DW, if the only way you can get through a particular task at work is by thinking that you are doing someone a favour...The job is not for you.

Peace,
DW

Open Letter #1

2006-03-23T08:56:00.000-05:00

I was talking with Junky yesterday about how I have to write a few letters to myself regarding things I don't want to do...This is the #1.

Dear DW,

This is just a note to let you know that you do not want work in a library. EVER. You hate your job. You don't look forward to going in...And you're really, really bored.

Most of the questions you get are in fact that same question disguising itself in a different format over and over and, perhaps, requiring the use of a different database and/or different keywords. But in essence, these questions are are the same question--"How can I find journals and books on my topic?"

Sometimes, you're greeted with invovled patrons who actually care about learning how to find these things on their own. Other times, you're greeted by patrons that don't care how to find the resources--They want YOU to find the resources. And they're rude and impatient about it, too.

Either way, regardless of who comes to the desk, you always think the same thing--I DON'T CARE. GO AWAY. These are not good thoughts. They are not happy thoughts. You like happy thoughts.

If you're wondering whether you have more to write on this topic--You don't. Because that is ALL you do in your job. There are no alternative activities.

You are very frustrated, very bored and very unhappy at your current job. Remember that. And don't wax nostalgic once you leave.

Best wishes and I hope you're doing well.
DW

Tag you're it...

2006-03-14T15:01:00.000-05:00

Four jobs I have had

Bakery employee at a Supermarket
Cashier at an outdoors equiptment store
Contract researcher for a newspaper
Tutor for a fourth grader

Four movies I can watch over and over

16 Candles
Ferris Bueller's Day Off
Better Off Dead
Coming to America

Four places I have lived

Guelph
Toronto
Sussex, England for four weeks...does that count?
C'est tout

Four TV shows I love

Everybody Hates Chris
The Office (American)
The Cosby Show
Cheers

Four places Iâ€™ve vacationed

Egypt
Portugal
Spain
California

Four of my favorite dishes

French Fries & Gravy
Prime Rib & Mashed Potatos from The Keg (Nice, Jan!)
Thai Green Curry
Chocolate...That's not a dish, is it?

Four sites I visit daily

Dooce.com
TheStar.ca
flickr.com
pinkisthenewblog.com

Four places I would rather be right now

At home.
At home.
Hawaii
New York City

Five people I am tagging

Five?!...I'll try for Junky and a*c...I don't think they've filled this out already.

hallo

2006-03-13T09:53:00.000-05:00

So, following up the last post re: how people find this blog..someone searched for "ugly dateless men."

This is a remarkable search, I must say! I really wonder what he or she was looking for. Do you think it's a "he" and he considers himself ugly? And he just happens to be dateless... And is looking for some kind of support group? (UDM searcher: I'm sure you're not ugly by the way!)

Or do you think it is someone who is indeed searching for ugly dateless men because he or she prefers them...Maybe they have better personalities, maybe the searcher is so vain he/she figures he/she will look even more beautiful when standing next to an ugly person! The possibilities are endless!

Oh, and in case you're wondering, I'm still dateless.

Hmmm

2006-01-28T13:44:00.000-05:00

How's it going, folks?
I still don't have anything to say, but I thought it might be fun to go through the different search words people used in order to find this blog...Thrilling...Exciting...Wonderful...Lame

1. desperate and dateless balls
I'm not sure what dateless balls are...I'm a bit confused and don't really want to comment any further. Hmm..Maybe they're talking about a ball...like a dance. That's possible...I thought it was some kind of weird device.

2. "Spongebob Squarepants" and "Magic 8 ball"
classic. And what a good searcher this person is...using quptation marks and the 'and.' Good work.

3.OVer 50 and dateless
This one sort of depressed me. I hope he or she finds a date soon. I hope I find a date soon.

4.dateless celebrities
I wonder if Brad Pitt or someone actually typed this in...Or if some 12 year old girl wants to date a celebrity...AND CELEBRITY. ESPECIALLY DATELESS ONES.

That was fun. :p

long time no blog

2005-11-22T19:52:00.000-05:00

So what to say, nothing in the dateless world has changed. Did you think otherwise? I had a brief crush on a guy--Actually seemed pretty nice...Alas, alas, he has a girlfriend.

Haven't come up with any new theories...It gets really sad when you keep rediscovering the same theories over and over...

Meh. I think I might be officially lonely.

In other news, school sucks. Work is meh. And pre-graduation panic is setting in. I still have several months, but the last thing I want to do when I graduate is actually work in a library. AGHGGHGH. What do I do? What do I do?

I'm gaining interest in some graphic novels..Harvey Pekar, Seth, Chester Brown. I really enjoyed "It's a Good Life, If You Don't Weaken" by Seth.

So that's my life right now...classes, work, practicum, indexing, reading, drawing, and downloading from iTunes.

P.S. I want snowshoes.

yo

2005-10-23T10:35:00.001-04:00

So I've been MIA for a few weeks...What can you do?

School's been really busy...Work's been busy...and I am also doing an internship so...I've been out of the house a lot. Woe is me.

The place where I'm interning is really amazing. There are millions of children's books in their library, so it's really cool. And the librarian I work with is possibly one of the nicest people I've ever worked with. It's really been a great experience so far.

Of course, as you know, my single situation has not changed because if I had something to write about...I would.
I'm sure I've written about this before...but I just can't get over how fine I feel when I don't have a crush....And how not fine I feel when I do have a crush.

When I don't have a crush I couldn't care less that I'm single. I’m rationale, level-headed and all of those wonderful things. I’m not plagued with thoughts of dying alone or anything. That said, when I am crushing on someone I'm possible the most miserable, obsessive basket case ever. Meh.Meh.Meh.

I have to go work on a few assignments. While I think I want school to be over...Well, I don't want to say that I'll miss school when it's over...But I think I'll miss facets off it. I better be able to find a job that I really like.

fcuk

2005-10-23T10:35:00.000-04:00

i wrote an entry and then it was lost.
poo.

yo

2005-10-23T10:20:00.000-04:00

happy birthday to me

2005-09-20T15:18:00.000-04:00

one year older and fartier today.

yee ha.

school is a bore

2005-09-13T22:41:00.000-04:00

After five months of being away from school, it's starting up again. I have my first three classes tomorrow. 9AM to 9:30PM...And then a 9AM class the day after. Talk about dumb scheduling. But there were really not many interesting classes offered on other days, so that's what I'm stuck with.

I was helping out with registration being on student council (BIGGEST. MISTAKE. EVER.) and there were a few good looking guys around my age. That was interesting to see because last year all the incoming male students were either gay or middle aged or both. That said, I don't know whether any of these new guys are straight. Meh.

I hate this quarter-life crisis thing. I mean, I don't particularly like my masters program, and while I really like 99.9999% of the people I work with, I'm know that I wouldn't want to do my job for the rest of my life.

Bitch bitch bitch. Moan moan moan.

uh huh

2005-08-26T19:07:00.000-04:00

So, today, after not leaving my house for two weeks...Aside from trips to the library, eye dr., grocery store, etc. I left the house. To go to a mall. Bleagh.

Apparently an hour after I left, my boss called, but I only got home at 6:30 pm so I don't know why she called. IT'S EATING ME ALIVE! It's probably something to do with scheduling, but I still want to know. She always emails me so I'm wondering what's going on.

I went to Yorkdale Mall with some friends...And it was my worst nightmare come alive. I hate shopping. I really do. I enjoyed going into the Apple store and trying out their new mouse...But other than that, I hate shopping. No interest in clothing and shoes. I can go into a store and know within 3 seconds whether they have anything for me. I hate walking around. And I hate shops without chairs.

When I said to my friend, "See, I'm the perfect girlfriend. No shopping. No purse carrying." I prefer guy-guys...Not metrosexuals. My friend responded with a, "But don't you want to look sexy for your future boyfriend?? Maybe you'll have to find a guy who finds good personalities sexy."

Isn't "good personality" Tactful-speak for "ugly"?

grossness!

2005-08-25T21:27:00.000-04:00

It's awful to look at the Public Health reports for Salad King--You can find them on Toronto.ca >> Health >> Dinesafe. Yuck. As recently as August 10, 2005 they were accused of these infractions: FAILURE TO PROTECT FOOD FROM CONTAMINATION and FAILURE TO ENSURE / PROVIDE FOR PROPER EMPLOYEE HYGIENE / HANDWASHING.

And in March of 2005 these ones: INADEQUATE FOOD TEMPERATURE CONTROL; FAILURE TO PROTECT FOOD FROM CONTAMINATION; FAILURE TO ENSURE / PROVIDE FOR PROPER EMPLOYEE HYGIENE / HANDWASHING; IMPROPER MAINTENANCE / SANITATION OF NON-FOOD CONTACT SURFACES / EQUIPMENT: Operator fail to properly wash surfaces in rooms and Operator fail to properly wash equipment.

I'm glad I filed a complaint.

I'm going to be checking out the inspection reports from now on before I eat out.

fcuking food poisoning

2005-08-19T22:21:00.000-04:00

Aghh!
I'm boycotting Salad King!

long time no see

2005-08-11T23:54:00.000-04:00

As usual, I'm having trouble posting...But I have a bit to say, so I decided to post.

For some reason, even though no one has EVER tried to set me up with guys EVER, people have been trying in the last two weeks. But the thing is, the matchmakers don't know anything about the men they're trying to hook me up with.

My grandmother wanted to set me up with some Persian guy, the grandson of one of her friends. But she knew nothing about him, not even his age. Bah. Also, Persians don't tend to like half-breeds who don't speak the language. I've been asked "Why don't you speak Farsi? Don't you want to learn?" too many times. Take it up with my mom.

Another friend made an innocent suggestion that I go out with a friend of a friend of a boyfriend...But the dude works at a chocolate shop that shall remain nameless because of confidence issues. Apparently, he doesn't think he can do better. I ain't playing the rescuer.

Meh.

Today at volleyball, my friend and I noticed another good looking guy. This guy is one of those larger, muscular football types. Looks like it might be the off season for him tho... ;)

I think he noticed that we were talking about him b.c it seemed like he kept on looking at us.

Oh well. We won't see him again either because we're not playing at the same time next week...and it's the last game for the season.

What can you do....

In other news, I'm on vacation for 3 weeks.

2005-06-23T23:04:00.000-04:00

So Junky and I went out of lunch on Monday. It was my responsibility to blog about it, but I haven't been up to blogging in the last little while so I'm a little late. :)

I hadn't seen Junky in awhile so it was great to catch up with her. We had dim sum at an overpriced (for dim sum) but nice restaurant at Yonge and Eg. And then topped it off with cupcakes.

Junky's good because, like me, she enjoys fine dining and browsing through bookstores. I love browsing through bookstores. It was there that I professed my love for both Nigella Lawson and Jamie Oliver. I'm in love with foodies.

Now, there's this little cupcake shop in the area, and I've been wanting to go there for a few years ago. I've really only heard bad things about it, but I mean, if a cupcake shop can survive for over a month, you figure there's something to their cupcakes.

WRONG.

They were crappy.
Oh well.

In other news, new season of volleyball started up again and we played hot guy again. I've rediscovered my powers for invisiblity. Meh what can you do.

jeez

2005-06-09T23:52:00.000-04:00

Why is it that whenever we find potentially crush worthy material, we'll never end up seeing the guy again?

My friend and I both agreed that the guy on the other volleyball team we played against tonight was quite oh la la. And he and his entire team were very nice and smiley...which is (for some reason) a rarity amongst these faux beach volleyball players. However, tonight was the last night for this session.

Jeez.

BooksBooksBooks

2005-06-08T20:50:00.000-04:00

Number of books I own:

Just under 250.
And that doesn't include the Babysitters' Club collection.

Last book I bought:

I have to make that books. I had a gift certificate to that I have been holding on to for two years now. $100 to spend at the Women's Bookstore. YEECH! They overcharged me once when I was buying course books, so they gave me my course books for free (good thing, 'cause i dropped the course) and $100. They don't have many options when it comes to fiction so I purchased:

Doris Lessing - The Grandmothers
Doris Lessing - The Golden Notebook
Carole Shields et al. Dropped Threads
Elfriede Jelinek - The Piano Teacher

Last book I read:

I'm Not Scared by Niccolo Ammaniti
I liked the movie more, go see the move.

5 books that mean a lot to me:

1. The Princess Bride by William Goldman - THE BEST BOOK EVER!

2. Fight Club by Chuck Palahniuk - Well, my box of stuff from Chuck Palahniuk means more to me than Flight Club, but whatever.

3. Jennifer, Hecate, Macbeth, William McKinley and Me, Elizabeth by E.L. Konigsberg - BEST CHILDREN'S BOOK EVER!

4. The Headless Cupid by Zilpha Keatley Snyder

5. From the Mixed Up Files of Mrs. Basil E. Frankweiler by Zilpha Keatley Snyder

Hmmm.. 3/5 are children's books.

Who can I tag? Everyone I know who reads has already done it...

2005-06-07T18:05:00.000-04:00

I've had a hard time sitting down to write.

I really need to start wearing my glasses, I got them over two years ago and I only wear them in class, if at all. I think my vision is getting worse as more and more men are turning into transformers.

transformer n.
1. A man who looks good from far away, but bad close up.

Work is going well and I'm enjoying myself. Ack. I didn't think I'd say I enjoy library work, but I am. There's a calmness to it all. Let's hope this happiness continues...Knock on wood.

One of my brothers is travelling in Japan for three weeks. Lucky duck.

That's all for now.

Meh

2005-05-26T19:54:00.000-04:00

I have to go to volleyball tonight, but I don't want to! I don't like playing it! Part of the problem is the one of the people on our team. He's just too hardcore competitive, but without any of the skill! What is with middle-aged men who HAVEHAVEHAVEHAVE to prove something. No one cares whether we win or lose. I certainly don't. And UGHUGHUGH I hate his attempts to encourage us. He's always giving pointers....

"DW, go up to the net more. Put your arms up to spike it!"
"Dude, I'm 5'3", ain't no way I'm gonna be spiking anything...Unless it's your head."

That'd be too easy.
Every time we have a match, I'm counting down the minutes. I can't stop looking at the clock. Maybe that contributes to our losing, I don't care. Ughughugh.
FOUR MORE WEEKS! (Really, four more nights of volleyball.) FOUR TOO MANY.

2005-05-21T19:19:00.000-04:00

The last few weeks have been pretty calm. My mother was visiting the motherland (Iran), so it was a scramble getting the house back in shape for her return.
In more philosophical terms, it's really interesting to hear about other people's relationships and how--as I've said before--people seem to go crazy when they're in a relationship. I usually expose all of my neuroses to people pretty quickly in general, but it's interesting how some people only share those with their partners. Or maybe, they just get exposed in romantic relationships. What a terrifying thought, I might be a lot more messed up than I think I am! ACK! Oh well.
That's all for now...

bitchbitchbitch moanmoanmoan

2005-05-13T22:12:00.000-04:00

So I've been missing for a few weeks....
I don't know. I've been working. A bit. It's all right.
I can't read. I want to read so badly. I have so many books that need reading, but I can only read one page before I have to stop. Meh.
No men, no men. Alas, no men. What to do? Now it's been 2 years without a solid crush. Woe is moi.
There were a few cute men a work today, but I don't think that whole love in the stacks thing really works. Maybe I need to start wearing my glasses to work so that I'll really fulfil the stereotype of a librarian. My eyes are getting worse though, so maybe I'll actually have to.
I'm all teched up though...Finally got me a digital camera. It's pretty sassy if I do say so myself. I don't know if I'll be sharing any pictures though. I've just been taking pictures of the forest outside my house.
Oh la la.

long time no see..

2005-04-28T21:45:00.000-04:00

I went to the Lenny Kravitz concert yesterday. Lenny fucking rocks!
What an amazing concert. I'm not really into concerts, but Lenny was great. Wonderful performer...Threw his towel and his shirt into the audience...Walked through the aisles...Played all his 'greatest hits' ...Yay Lenny!

go go dateless wonder vision!

2005-04-13T21:03:00.000-04:00

Jeez. Whenever I'm going somewhere new, or doing some new activity, my thoughts always turn to whether there might be some eligible bachelors at the location.

When I started school this year, I wondered about that...
When I started new classes this semester...
When I started my new job....
When I went to the faculty party at the bar...
etc., etc.

The lastest time was tonight when I went to a beach volleyball clinic (my friends and I signed up to play). I need to stop doing that...When I arrive somewhere I survey the area like some lecher.

I'm a wanna be lecher!!

P.S. No hotties at volleyball.

Fine, Janice.

2005-04-11T17:14:00.000-04:00

But you've already heard this one. :)

So I haven't written in a while due to school wrapping up and a lack of motivation. Now school's finished for this semester, so really there are no excuses. Another year at school came and went soooo fast, and now I have 5 months off until it starts up again.

What should I do? I'll be working part time, but I'll have a lot of free time.

We also had our facutly's party on Friday. Haha. There are noooo men in my program--It's not funny. My friend and I were hanging out with the 37 year old white Russian. I love that guy, he's so funny. Anyways, as we were leaving the party the white Russian kissed our hands in a very gentlemanly manner...And this PhD Russian (What's with all the Russians?) student stopped me just after it happened with a loud "EXCUSE ME." When I stopped to see what he wanted, he pointed towards the white Russian and said, "Does that really work?"

I supposed questioning how a 37 year old, overweight bald Russian guy gets away with kissing the hands of two 23 year old girls.

I looked at PhD Russian and said, "As long as you have an accent, you can do anything."
PhD Russian has an accent.
He looked taken aback and said, "So I don't even have to do that?"
I repeated myself, "As long as you have an accent, you can do anything."
PhD Russian suddenly had this huge grin on his face and he said, "THANK YOU!"

How bizarre is that? I'm still not sure what happened.

yaddayaddayadda

2005-03-22T22:56:00.000-05:00

Hmm...Been doing homework, procrastinating, etc.

Funny how blogging isn't a form of procrastination right now. It seems too chorish.

The weather has been nice.

hmm...

2005-03-18T23:24:00.000-05:00

The friend of mine whose present boyfriend professed his love to her a month or so ago is having some difficulties...The boyfriend recently criticised her on a very superficial level...She had doubts about their compatibility prior to this event, so it seems as though everything is up in the air.

It's really interesting to wonder what mix of qualities makes a particular couple compatible. For example, in my friend's case, she and the bf had very similar religious beliefs, yet it seems as though their personalities may be uncomplimentary.

What does it take to have a successful relationship? People need to be similar in some respects...Values for one, some common interests, sense of humour, etc. But where can the differences exist?

You always hear how too many similarities makes for a boring relationship, yet too many differences makes for plain incompatibility....

I wonder what it takes...

no love in the stacks...

2005-03-17T21:17:00.000-05:00

...this week, I had a lot of first year students asking for help. I've got to draw the line somewhere, don't I?

School is almost over soon. Every week seems like some sort of existential battle. I can tell from my studies and my work experience that I don't want to work in a library. I want to be a kept woman.

In other news, I'm tired and I want to sleep.

Countdown

2005-03-14T12:27:00.000-05:00

School is almost over for the year. There are only about four weeks left. I was considering taking summer school, but a course on government publications does not seem all that alluring.

I've had another school year with basically no crushes. There was the Hitched Crush for about two weeks there, but otherwise, it's been pretty dry.

What is going on? It's been two years of a desert-like existence.

love in the stacks: the story

2005-03-09T09:50:00.000-05:00

HAHA. Sorry. (Again.)

Yesterday when I was working, I had just dealt with two mentally ill individuals in a row, when this nice looking young man (NLYM) approached the desk. He was a student at another university, but he wanted to use some of our resources...

I set him up at a computer while one of the mentally ill individuals I had worked with followed us and starting asking the NLYM questions about his university and who he knew and what year he was in, etc., etc. (If only I could be so persistent! :)

So, it turned out that NLYM was in fourth year, and that he also worked at IBM as mentally ill man said "You work at IBM. I can see your nametag. I know your name now." (This is where you know I'm not as big a stalker as I'd like to think I am-- I didn't even look at the tag and try to remember his name! Fie!)

NLYM asked me if he could print from the particular database, and because I wasn't familiar with the interface I guess I was sort of squinting at the screen, as I'm apt to do when I'm thinking. On the screen were several of the articles he had found. Now either I had weird expression on my face or NLYM was overly sensitive, because he suddenly said, "It's for an essay. Uh. It's about...Uh....Sexuality. Uh. Between. Uh. Men and Women. Uh." And then he showed me his essay topic, "Men want just want sex, women just want love."

And because one of my all time favorite topics is the chemistry of love, I finally had some knowledge to share with a patron! Anyways, we didn't end up walking arm-in-arm out of the library, but a girl can dream, right? He was gainfully employed and in school and he handled the mentally ill man in a very good natured fashion. Sounds perfect... ;)

Oh well.

love in the stacks...

2005-03-08T22:11:00.000-05:00

HAHA. Sorry.

I took someone's shift tonight and fell in love with a patron.

Not really, but at least I have a story now.

Will write tomorrow.

hmm

2005-03-07T22:20:00.000-05:00

I've been lacking motivation to write the last week or so. But I guess all my fellow bloggers have lacked motivation too...And mentioned this fact! What's going on? Is it the weather?

I just realized I have one insignificant thing to write about. There is this totally cute Asian guy who often happens to get on the same bus as me. Not the same stop though.

The last time I saw him, I realized he was an ESL student! He sat next to me and I saw that he was doing his English homework. I love it!

Perhaps, he speaks the international language...Y'know...The international language! Love!

Guess the movie that comes from and you get a prize. :)

America's Next Top Model

2005-03-02T21:30:00.000-05:00

IT HAS STARTED AGAIN!

I love this show soooooooOOoooooo much.

I'm no fashionista, but I absolutely love watching make-up getting done, hair styled, and walk-offs!

I have also predicted the winners for the last two years from the first episode. I had no gut reaction during this episode, so we'll see.

Favorite quotation:

When asked his opinion about a rather stumpy necked wanna-be model, "Ms." J. responded with a:
"You know how I feel about no-neck monsters."

If they were doing America's Next 5'3" Model, I would totally apply!

tralala

2005-03-01T22:19:00.000-05:00

So the stats test is over with...Let's not talk about it. :)

I got over my sickness, but then today, I sat next to this girl who was just coughing and blowing her nose throughout the entire class. EW! Why don't people stay home when they're sick? We weren't doing anything important in that class. Yuck.

I've sort of hit a dateless wall where I don't even care. There are no crushes, no future crushes, no mini-crushes, etc.

I'm wasting the pretty.

what's with the snow?

2005-02-26T13:42:00.000-05:00

Well, at least it's sunny outside.

I seem to have somehow caught a cold. Argh. I had been doing so well and illness free this year.

I'm trying to study for statistics, but I have not been that successful. I wonder when I'll stop procrastinating and start working.

so

2005-02-21T14:36:00.000-05:00

I'm on my reading week right now. While I don't have to do any writing, I do have to study for the infamous statistics test. I'll start today I swear.

I've been going out with friends this past weekend. A lot of couples. I got to play third or fifth wheel depending on the situation. Always interesting when couples sort of argue in public, I don't know why....It's uncomfortable but interesting...Maybe it's 'cause it's interesting to see who wins...Or how they handle disagreements. What works, what doesn't...

I also saw Hitch. It was all right. It was funny, but I think it could have been funnier. I bought Kung Fu Hustle (Gong fu)...Hmm...Maybe I'll watch it before I study for stats.......

I just made some green tea ice cream. I finally found some reasonably priced matcha powder. I tried making it once with loose leaf tea steeped in hot milk, but the flavour wasn't strong enough. I find out if this batch worked after I freeze it.

Hmm..Green tea ice cream...Kung fu movie....What more could you ask for???

what to say...

2005-02-17T18:57:00.000-05:00

So, I've been finishing up some school work the last week, and then reading week starts for me. Yee ha. But that doesn't mean much because I have a stats test to write the week we get back. STATS? I haven't done math since grade 12! I'm so screwed.

In other news, there's no news. And we all know that no news is good news. :)

i choo-choo-choose

2005-02-14T18:35:00.000-05:00

no one.

So another Valentine's Day is going by...The only truly good thing about Valentine's Day is the chocolate...But then Easter brings chocolate as well. Hmmm. Hallowe'en brings chocolate too...So does Christmas....Mmm. Chocolate.

stolen from junky...

2005-02-12T22:45:00.000-05:00

All about me:

I AM: A Dateless Wonder
I WANT: to be fulfilled and happy with my life
I HAVE: a slight sense of unease and disatisfaction about where I'm going
I WISH: I could make a living writing humourous stuff for the rest of my life
I HATE: when I say I'll 'never' do something...And end up doing it. Never say never.
I FEAR: EVERYTHING.
I SEARCH: for a happy, healthy relationship with a man
I WONDER: where I'll be in five years
I REGRET: not ever having participated in a food fight
I LOVE: the wind, the rain, and smiles
I AM NOT: going to ever meet Brad Pitt
I DANCE: in the manner of an extra in an 80s teen movie
I CRY: when I watch movies (Spiderman 2, Finding Nemo, etc.)
I WRITE: when I can
I WIN: contests
I LOSE: sleep
I CONFUSE: easily
I NEED: a sign to tell me I'm going in the right direction
I SHOULD: learn to be less afraid

I'm Howie D....Howie doin'???

2005-02-09T01:03:00.000-05:00

How much do looks matter? I mean, if you find someone's personality supremely attractive, can that overrule a complete lack of physical chemistry?

Or are those types of people called "friends"?

I realize that people can become more physically attractive if they have winsome personalities...But physical attraction IS important, right?

A balance between the two is most desirable, but does it ever work out that way...?

These are just some questions, no conclusions.

Here's what the Backstreet Boys had to say:

At a party, you're introduced to a beautiful but boring girl and a fun but not-so-cute girl. Which of the two do you talk to?

Nick: Well, you could talk to the beautiful girl and she could be really stuck up and have a bad attitude, but the not-so-pretty girl could have a great personality. I'd have to see what their personalities were like first.
AJ: I would go for the interesting but not-so-beautiful girl, 'cause at least you could have a decent conversation. Beauty isn't only on the outside. If she's got a good personality and she's fun to hang out with, that's better than a girl who looks good but is dumb.
Howie: Oh wow! Hmmm... I'm gonna be more interested in the one with the better personality. I don't think there's any such thing as a truly ugly person. It's a combination of different things, and if I couldn't find someone with the right combination, maybe I'd just talk to myself!

What do YOU think?

je suis

2005-02-08T19:36:00.000-05:00

employed!!!
Yay! I got the job.
Money. I need money.

indeed

2005-02-05T22:32:00.000-05:00

I went here for dinner to celebrate a friend's birthday. Looks-wise, it was a standard non-atmospheric restaurant, but the food was good. It had very exciting appetizers. The service was really slow, but it was more a Slow Food atmosphere than actual bad service. Or at least, I like to think so... :)

Since we're just a bunch of single girls and one hitched guy going out, the ladies started talking about weddings which is always amusing. While the guy was getting slightly irritated, he's always patient enough to put up with are blabbering.

P: So, J, what type of wedding do you want?
J: Well, I've been thinking it over, and I want it to take place in this hall...
P: You've got two years to make it happen.
J: I know...
Everyone: You want to be married by 26???
J: And kids three years later.
DW: It's not gonna happen.
J: I know.
The Guy: My guy friends never talk about this stuff.
DW: The only reason we can tolerate talking about it is because everyone's single. If one of us were actually getting married, the rest of us would be thinking: 'You stupid cow. Why don't you shut the fuck up? I'm tired of hearing about your stupid perfect wedding and your stupid perfect fiancé. Why don't you choke on a wedding cake sample?!'

End scene.

In other news, I hope the a*c/junky celebration went well & that there was enough food! Sorry I couldn't make it! :)!!!!!!!!

quarterlifecrisistime

2005-02-04T20:44:00.000-05:00

What to say...I was at home today doing school work....Sort of...The pull of the Cosby Show is just too great sometimes. And the fact that it's on six times a day doesn't really do much to help my Cos <--HA. The Cos? Cause? Get it?

Yeah. Uh. Maybe I'll try writing again later....

INTERVIEW

2005-02-03T14:54:00.000-05:00

Okay. So I had the interview. It was to work in the rather large library in my University. It pays $22.47 per hour...which is why I applied. I'm lazy, but not lazy enough to deny that much money!

The interviewers were sooooooooo friendly! It's a bit disarming because you can't tell whether you're doing a shit job of selling yourself or not. I think the interview went well except for a few parts. I think I babbled a bit, but that's to be expected. The major problem was that they asked me to do a practical portion where I demonstrated how I would show someone a search and I kinda messed that part up because I couldn't read a part of the catalogue!! AGGGH!!!!!!!!! STUPID PRINT JOURNALS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Oh well. Apparently a lot of people in my faculty are interested in this position...So we'll see. She said she'd contact everyone by the end of next week.

The shifts were PERFECT!!!!!!!!!!But I'm not holding my breath.

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!

2005-02-03T13:34:00.000-05:00

I HAVE A JOB INTERVIEW IN HALF AN HOUR!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Serenity now! Serenity now!

mon amie

2005-02-02T15:47:00.000-05:00

One of my friends recently received a lovely email from a suitor--en Francais! He professed his love to her! Tres romantique, non? She was a little unimpressed that he couldn't do it in person--Quel dommage! Mais, I think that it's okay...His heart is in the right place. I say we all go to Quebec City...It seems to be a hot spot for picking up les Pepsis!

@#!% hand psychic...

2005-01-31T18:10:00.000-05:00

...she was wrong about everything that was supposed to happen this month!

Someone needs a new day job! Sheesh!!

;)

single and desperate or married and bored?

2005-01-29T23:08:00.000-05:00

Went out for dinner here with the girls and the guy tonight. We got a table right next to the floor-to-ceiling window that looks out on to the street. Always enjoyable because you get to watch passersby and they get to watch you. I waited for someone to knock on the window and point at my food with a curious expression 'cause I wanted to give someone a thumbs up.

There were four thirtysomething women sitting at the table next to us and I was trying to establish whether they were single and desperate or married and bored. I tried to listen to their conversation a bit. I couldn't hear what they were saying, but listening to their intonation was enough fodder for analysis.

Reasons they were single & desperate:

1. They flirted with the waiter in that typical loud, obnoxious way that some women do. "SO, WHAT'S GOOD ON THE MENU? OH! REALLY? WE'LL HAVE THAT!" P.S. to the waiter: Why describe a dish as flavourful? That doesn't really tell us anything now does it? Shouldn't that be a given?

2. They didn't eat their food. This, in my opinion, was really strange. I mean, they all ordered the Kobe Beef Burger, but barely touched them. Why? I thought that perhaps they were trying to maintain their thirtysomething figures.

3. As my friends and I were leaving the restaurant, one of the women started listing all the men she'd slept with this year..."Brian...Three times. Steve...Twice. Steve #2....Three times. I don't really sleep around, girls! I just repeatedly sleep with the same men!!"

hmm

2005-01-27T22:24:00.000-05:00

That palm reader has four days to make good on her predictions!

If I don't get a boyfriend and have a published piece by the end of this month then maybe I won't live till I'm 80, have 2 kids, and need corrective surgery in 2 years!

are you a biased asshole?

2005-01-25T22:50:00.000-05:00

Find out here...In a racial bias test created by Harvard University.

We talked about these in one of my classes. I don't know if I believe the methodology, but they're interesting.

For most of the ones I took, my results say I'm neutral to the races in question. I think that just means I hate everyone equally. :)

24?!

2005-01-24T22:14:00.000-05:00

(Take care--I'm feeling all rant-like.)

Most of my friends are going to be 24 years old in the next few months. (Junky and Janice are already there!)

Yikes!!! That seems so old and farty--No offense guys. :)
We September babies have it good (for now).

Now the interesting thing is--I think--I know over 5 attractive and intelligent ladies who are SINGLE! SINGLE! SINGLE!

They, for the most part, are not malodourous, maladroit, or simply, mal.

That said, my newest theory--as reflected in Junky's comment area--is that people seem to go insane when they are in relationships for these reasons:

i) When men/women are smitten they put up with a lot of shit they otherwise wouldn't.
ii) An individual can quickly turn from an I and a me into a we and an us.
iii) Individuals start rationalizing their partners' behaviours like there's no tomorrow.
iv) Conversely, individuals hold their partners to obscenely high standards and expectations.
v) People stay in relationships that are devoid of pleasure and happiness simply to be a part of something (nonexistent).

I'm sure there are more...

Haha. Clearly, I've gone from a quirky alone into a bitter, envious single person. Oh well.

Why I Love the Keg

2005-01-24T17:48:00.000-05:00

1. Garlic Mashed Potatoes.
2. Garlic Mashed Potatoes.
3. Garlic Mashed Potatoes.
4. Garlic Mashed Potatoes.
5. Garlic Mashed Potatoes.

Why am I single?

Well, I look and smell like garlic mashed potatoes.

toboganning!!!

2005-01-22T22:31:00.000-05:00

I went toboganning today! Yaaaaaaaaaay!

So much fun. Janice and I went on this wicked steep hill. It was like going down Splash Mountain! The snow whipping us in the face (poor visibility), an inability to steer (poor toboganning skills), and the steepness made for several amazingly dangerous/fun rides.

I was the one screaming as we went down while Janice remained silent. During one run, when we got to the bottom and crashed, Janice started yelling...My first thought was "Oh shit! I crushed her and broke her arm!"

Turns out she just thought we were going to crash into a tree.

Then we went to the Keg with Heidi. Mmm.

I just tried to watch The Human Stain. Don't bother watching this mess of a movie, read the book instead. It's excellent.

hare krishna

2005-01-22T10:06:00.000-05:00

I keep getting this piece of spam:

From: “Neateye”
Subject: Gouranga

Call out Gouranga be happy.
Gouranga Gouranga Gouranga.
Say Gouranga my friend
Gouranga…..That which brings the highest happiness!

Word on the street is that it's either sent by the Hare Krishnas or is somehow related to Grand Theft Auto.

Um. Yeah.

tralala

2005-01-20T18:36:00.000-05:00

Woo...They iced over the field next to my house. I can go skating. I just need to sharpen my skates. Hmm...

baby!

2005-01-19T15:17:00.000-05:00

I got to spend some time with a little baby today. Awwwww....She was so good natured. Never fussed...Just played and put everything in her mouth. Awwww. She was so curious.

easter egg hunting

2005-01-19T01:05:00.000-05:00

Clearly, I either need a) more homework or b) a new hobby because I just spent the last hour looking at easter eggs from here and here.

What is an easter egg?

I especially like the possum that can be found in Lotus.

In the Globe and Mail today:

Here's the ultimate chatting-up line, devised by Japanese psychologists and sociologists: ''This time next year, let's be laughing together.'' Saying ''next year'' implies that you're after more than a fling, explains Britain's Focus magazine and ''laughing together'' suggests mutual happiness.

Why use that when "I may not be the best looking guy in here, but I'm the only one talking to you" will do?

your genius is showing

2005-01-17T20:18:00.000-05:00

Just got back from dinner with Jani-Poo & her brother. We had REAL Chinese food, as Jan's e-mail invite stressed "there's no fried balls or springrolls of any sort... this is the real deal, baby." Real deal, indeed. I didn't eat a fish eye this time, I think once in my life time was enough. And I got a BBQ pork bun from the bakery next to Big Land Farm. Yum.

In other news, the STICKER LADY from Yonge Street has been caught. I gave her money about six years ago, and she said it was for a children's charity. I didn't really believe her, but I gave her $2 anyways...after I handed her the money she said, "That's it?"

oooh...the future

2005-01-16T15:59:00.000-05:00

My wonderful friend J., just dropped off a lovely random present--The SpongeBob Squarepants: Magic 8-Ball. Our old 8-Ball was on the fritz so this is excellent timing on J.'s part!
That said, I'm not sure if "TARTAR SAUCE!" is a "YES" or "NO." :)

In other future oriented news, many of the predictions made by the palm reader in San Francisco are supposed to come true this month:

i) I'll meet the man I'm supposed to marry--I supposedly already know him. OoooooOooooh.
ii) I'll be published--I've already received 2 rejection slips this month...Hmm...

Palm reader has got about 2 weeks to make good on these...

wonky dream #5

2005-01-15T13:35:00.000-05:00

I was filling the snowblower with gasoline, and I kept spilling it EVERYWHERE just out of carelessness. Maybe it was because the gasoline was stored in a plastic bag...?!

Meh. I liked my mornings better when I wouldn't wake up in the middle of my dreams.

out and about

2005-01-15T01:36:00.000-05:00

Went out tonight...

Dinner & a movie... I saw In Good Company....in good company! How do you like that? Topher Grace is hot...And Dennis Quaid is old-man-hot.
It's nice to have friends who are in synch with you...Synchronicity is good... :) We played an impromptu game of Saved By the Bell trivia. It was most enjoyable. My friends gave me a lovely cook book for Christmas! So kind! I came empty handed because I'm callous and...unChristmasie...so I paid for dinner. :)

Re: My "double date dream," Junky-- I don't remember much of it. It involved a boy from my high school who looks a lot like a young John Cusack. This look-alike is three years younger than me.

Anyways, from what I remember, I was going to go on a date with him, and he was inviting two of his friends. I did not want this to happen because I thought it would be uncomfortable. That is all I remember. I could have spared you this boring description, but you asked for it!

In other news, John Cusack is playing Torvald Helmer in an adaptation of A Doll's House?! Get out. He is sooo not Torvald.

yee ha

2005-01-13T22:14:00.000-05:00

Had far more success with today's assignment. I'll leave yesterday's to rest for a few days and look back on it (fondly, I'm sure) on Saturday.

I've been having some real wonky dreams recently. Gun fights, mice infestations, double dates...I wonder what type of entertainment tonight's dreams will bring....?

argh

2005-01-12T20:05:00.000-05:00

I tried to finish one of my assignments today, but I've been having a problem with my writing--It hasn't been clear or easy to produce...I hate when this happens because it makes me wonder whether I am able to express complex, academic ideas. I ended up producing a lot of nonsensical, wordy garbage today that needs to be heavily edited.

Argh. I really wanted to complete this assignment today. While I'm almost finished, what should have taken a few hours has taken many.

Meeeeeeeh.Meeeeeeeeeh.

Where are the lemon tarts when you need 'em?

end of the week

2005-01-11T19:32:00.000-05:00

Because I only have class on Mondays and Tuesdays...The week is over for me. Isn't life grand?

That said, I have assignments up the wazoo...So this week will be spent writingwritingwriting and readingreadingreading.

Here is my schedule:

(Maybe if I put it in writing I will follow it...)

Wednesday: Information Policy Assignment #1/Readings
Thursday: Readers' Advisory Assignment #1/Readings
Friday: Reasearch Methods Assignment #1/Reading

Go team!

In other news, I've said it before, and I'll say it again, but I am in desperate need of a crush.

readingreadingreading

2005-01-09T15:26:00.000-05:00

We played Texas Hold'em yesterday. I lost all my money first. It was sad. I wept. It was a very enjoyable night avec very wonderful people, though.

I've been trying to do my readings, and so far, I've been successful. I wonder if I'll be able to keep it up for the entire semester. My track record is really horrible when it comes to these things, so I dunno.

I'm still tired.

HBO's second season of Carnivale starts up tonight. I'm so excited! I really enjoy this show a lot, and there are so many questions that need answering pronto!

I have nothing else to say.

Oh, I really love lemon tarts. Yum.

i'm tired

2005-01-08T14:02:00.000-05:00

I have a lot of readings to do and assignments to start this weekend.
This first week back was supposed to be easy-peasy. Oh well.

I watched I'm Not Scared (Io non ho puaro) on DVD yesterday. It was a pretty amazing film. I guess it could be described as a coming-of-age thriller...Go see it.

I'm supposed to play poker tonight. I'm too tired though. I just want to sleep.

where's my mr. fix-it?

2005-01-05T13:47:00.000-05:00

I always like to know how to do technical things by myself. Knowing how to be a Miss Fix-It around the house is important to me. I mean, you can't rely on someone else to do everything can you? I'm all about self-sufficiency.

That said, I know nothing about car maintenance because I hate driving.

Today, when I went to the library, I noticed that one of my front tires was looking sort of flat. So I went to the gas station to pump it, but I don't think the pump was working or I wasn't working the pump. It was "in-service," so to speak, but I don't think it did much. I didn't figure that out very quickly so as I was pressing on the valve for my tire I think I was letting out more air than I was putting in...Making my tire FLAT.

So here I was shitting my pants because, like I said, I already hate driving, so I didn't know what to do. I drove the 3 blocks to the next gas station where there was this very nice, random man about to pump his tires. He helped me out. I am so grateful. He thinks I didn't completely ruin the tire by driving on it. I hope it is okay.

I usually pride myself on not being a dramatic, daft female but in this case I was freaking out as I was driving to the gas station--ABSOLUTELY FREAKING OUT. Whereas, the man who helped me was just so kind and matter-of-fact and generally man-like.

I need to find me one of those.

meh

2005-01-04T17:25:00.000-05:00

So I have a class with the Hitched Crush this semester. I saw him around the building today, too, but I didn't say "Hi" to him or anything. I've done enough to show him that I exist, I think. That said, there were opportunities for him to acknowledge me and he didn't--So now I have to find a new crush ASAP.

There's a cute guy in one of my new classes whom I have never seen before. He was wearing a lot of name brands..Helly Hanson, Etnies, Point Zero...Those are my only observations. :) I shall knight him Brando in honour of his name brand clothing.

Other than that, the romantic front is a desert.

Meh. Meh.

I'm going to eat dinner at my friend's house tonight. There are eight people in her immediate family ranging from age 11 to age 50something. I'm so excited!

resolutions?

2005-01-03T19:21:00.000-05:00

I never really make New Year's resolutions because New Year's fails to have a whole lot of meaning for me...But maybe I'll try... :)

1. Do yoga daily. (My constant search for equanimity.)
2. Do more of my readings for school.

Wow. That's not many!

Oh, and one more--stolen from Junky.

3. Read all the books I own before purchasing new ones!

:)

um

2005-01-02T18:35:00.000-05:00

New Year's was grand. One of my favorite friends came over and we watched The Hot Chick. Rob Schneider at his best, I must say. Absolute comedic genius. Sadly, that movie gets better every time I see it.

School starts up again tomorrow. I have four new courses to look forward including Information Policy, Reader Advisory, and Research Methods. Yee ha. I can't remember the jargony name of the last one...Oh well.

I wish, I wish, I wish that I will find a new crush this semester.

In other news, did you know they're making a sequel to Deuce Bigalow?

happy poo year

2004-12-31T11:36:00.000-05:00

So it's another New Year's Eve (day), and I'm sick!

Woo hoo! A few years ago, I was sick on NYE and it was my best one yet!
I read, went to bed early and slept through the entire ordeal.

I get weepy just thinking about it.

In other news, school is starting on Monday.
I'm excited about school, but I'm so Zack Morris.

"I love school, too bad classes get in the way."

white stuff

2004-12-23T22:49:00.000-05:00

This is pure snow! Do you have any idea what the street value of this mountain is?

-Charles De Mar, Better Off Dead

After ten years of my mother complaining about the Mr. Plows of the world, she decided to buy a snow thrower so that I could clear the driveway for her.

She needs it done before 8:30 which means I would have to do it by 7:30 (leave for school at 8:00) and shovelling--although alluring--would be a real drag.

So anyway, I go with my brother to the Store O'Throwers and I mentioned to him that it would be horrible for a female to go to one of these places alone because Tool Men usually talk down to women.

When the first Tool Man started talking to us, I said--"I'm the one who is going to be operating it, so I'd like to ask some questions..." When I asked him about having to mix oil with the gasoline, he told me to think about it like it was a recipe. I'm not sure if he uses that analogy on everyone.

When Tool Man #2 (who didn't know I would be the one using the machine) taught "us" how to use it, he NEVER ONCE made eye contact with me. He was teaching my brother.

Que lastima.

ick!

2004-12-20T10:00:00.000-05:00

So, when I woke up this morning and looked at my dashing face in the mirror, I noticed a red bump just under my lip.

"Hmm..." Thinks I. "Am I breaking out?"
I touch said red bump and feel nothing.
"Hmm..." Thinks I. "Is this a spider bite?"

Having been bitten before....that time on the TTC when a spider crawled up my pant leg--I was unaware--and bit me SEVERAL times. (I had no idea why there was an intense burning sensation on my thigh, and two seconds later several bumps.) I only reazlied what had happened when I went to look at my leg in bathroom at Bloor--NEVER DO THAT, EVER! EVER! Because you may just trod on someone's home.--and looked at my leg to see four bites....I now know what these bites look like.

I have been bitten from something in my sleep! How horrific! Hopefully, he got too close to my lips and I swallowed that son of a bitch.

Destroy my vanity you won't, Spider!

blahblahblah

2004-12-19T17:32:00.000-05:00

I'm hacking away at my take-home exam questions right now. Plus difficiles.

I don't have anything else to say about Google.com, radio-frequency ID tags, and the pros & cons of classification. Wah.

I didn't do the readings for the class (I forgot!), so I also have to play a little bit of catch up in order to insert pertinent quotations in here and there.

In other news, I started reading a book on statistics (no tears!) in preparation for next semester, and I'm finding it most enthralling. My brain really has turned to mush.

What's YOUR favorite book???

2004-12-18T01:17:00.000-05:00

So, next semester--which is in all of two weeks--I'm doing a course on reader's advisory. A very interesting subject. It's basically a course that learns you good in several different genres: chick lit, romance, graphic novels, thrillers, detective fiction, sci-fi, fantasy, etc., etc.

Anyways, last year, they had to do an assignment where they chose their favorite book EVER and discussed why it was so great.

If I had to do this same assignment, I thought I would choose The Princess Bride. That book is my all-time favorite! However, the prof says that you have to choose an ADULT fiction book. Now, in my option, The PB IS adult fiction--You won't find it in the children's section--You'll find it in the Sci-Fi/Fantasy section at Chapters. However, the public library's NoveList classifies it as Young Adult. Pity. All of my favorite books seem to be either Young Adult or Children's books.

So, then I thought Fight Club.

Give it up for Chuck!

And remember to answer the aforementioned question.

book reco

2004-12-16T19:40:00.000-05:00

I finally got a hold of a copy of He's Just Not That Into You.

I think it's good advice girls...I suggest you all check it out!

From Publishers Weekly
It’s a classic single-woman scenario: you really like this guy, but he’s giving mixed messages. You make excuses, decide he’s confused, afraid of commitment. Behrendt, a former executive story editor for Sex and the City—and a formerly single (now happily married) guy who knows all the excuses—provides a simple answer: he’s just not that into you.

yeah...

2004-12-16T18:51:00.000-05:00

So, I talked to the Crush--my friend and I have dubbed him "Lars."

I introduced myself to him, and asked him about that course he had to create that blog about, because I was considering taking those courses earlier in the year. He was very helpful and nice. He used a lot of jargon when he was talking, but I guess that reflects the course (which was theoretical) as opposed to him.

Anyways, it was good to talk to him so at least he's a real person now, and not some figment.

Mission Accomplished.

Meh....Now I need to find a new Lars.

!tiny sepuku!

2004-12-14T17:32:00.000-05:00

So excited am I!

I wrote to Tiny Sepuku--The greatest advice comic/greatest stand alone comic anywhere (www.tinysepuku.com) --And the cartoonist responded to my give-me-advice-please query.

He rocks! Who knows...Maybe my query will be made into a comic? So cool! Here's his reponse:

Hi [DW], thanks for your email and the kind words about the comic. There was an old song by The Smiths called Ask with lyrics that went "Shyness is nice and shyness can stop you from doing all the things in life you'd like to". I thought of that song when I read your question.

I wonder if you are more visible to guys than you think and maybe they do want to talk to you. It's just that when you don't make eye contact or acknowledge them verbally, they may get the impression that you don't want to be bothered and it discourages them from talking to you.

If that's the case, I would practice just making yourself more approachable. That is maintaining eye contact with guys, and dare I say "initiating" it. I would also try to give off a relaxed, and inviting vibe instead of some kind of "don't look at me, you scare me" one. Once you've gotten that down, then you can work on the conversation part. It's okay to not divulge too much to someone you've just met, and given that you're scared of talking to boys you like, I don't think that will be a problem. But initiating and maintaining conversation is key.

So just keep the conversation light, and ask questions about your potential suitor. Like find out what he does, what kind of things he's into, etc. You won't have to do much talking at all and you'll give the impression that you're interested in him. At some point you'll be relaxed enough around him to be yourself and everything will be on autopilot. Another thing you can do is just practice flirting. You can do this with guys who are much more bashful than you (and there are A LOT of those...why do you think so many guys won't approach you?) or just do it with good looking waiters and store clerks. I say practice with retail folks cuz part of their job is to flirt with and engage the customers. So no matter how bad you flirt, you'll still probably get some kind of interaction with them. Just don't ask them out, that puts an end to the customer/server flirtation dynamic and just makes thing awkward (If they really are interested in you, they'll ask you out). Just writing about this makes me want to do some comics on retail flirtation rules.

And if all else fails, just wear a brightly colored tee-shirt with huge printing on it that says: I'm Shy! Please Talk To Me. or something like that. Strangely enough you aren't the only person in this situation. I know a lot of people who are attractive and have never been on dates, some in their 30s. So it's more common than you know. I think you need to start a web site for all these people to meet and you can date each other. Anyway, I wish you luck with finding someone. You seem to have extroverted tendencies in other aspects of your life, so I'm sure eventually you'll carry them over to your romantic side and find a date. Thank you again for writing. Take care.
K
PS Where should I say this question is from?

One down!

2004-12-13T19:20:00.000-05:00

Three to go!

Today's exam in management was enlightening. It's always good to use answers found in the multiple choice questions in your answers for the essay questions.... :-/

Who wants to study bibliographic control?! People studying to be librarians, that's who!

Now, another question arises...Why am I studying bibliographic control?

In other news, I didn't see the Hitched Crush today. He who shall soon become either UnHitched or an UnCrush once I figure out what is going on... Bwah!

doom -- read it all, please.

2004-12-12T23:48:00.000-05:00

So, tomorrow I have a management exam. Woo. Hold me down.

I'm not sure if I'm ready, but I still have a few more hours tomorrow to study.

Ugh. On to my usual diatribe about singleness.
What is going on here? I feel like I'm going in mad circles, or I'm in a giant circle that will never end. Why hasn't anything changed?

I've actually learned not to ask for change because of the Grimm Fairy Tales...but that's another story involving a mouse, a sausage and a bird.

Ah what the heck....

So there's this mouse, sausage, and bird...

They all lived together, see, in this house--Quite happily, indeed.
They each do a particular chore each day: The mouse cleans house and fetches water, the sausage cooks the food and passes himself through the stew to flavor it, and the bird goes into the forest to collect the fire wood.

One day, as the bird is collecting the fire wood, a crow starts talking to him.

"Say, what are you doing out here, bird?"
"Oh--I'm just collecting wood!" responded bird.
"It seems like a tiring job to me! Why are you doing it?" asked crow.
"Well, I live with mouse and sausage, and we each do chores so that the household functions properly."
"What chores do they have to do?"
"Well, they do chores around the house--cooking & cleaning."
"You mean they don't have to leave the house? They sure are taking advantage of you!"

Now, the bird had never thought that he was being taken advantage of, but the more he thought about it, the more he agreed with the crow. He immediately went home to discuss it with his roommates.

"I'm getting a bum deal here!" yelled bird when he got home. "I want to stay at home!"
Despite mouse and sausage's pleading that everything worked well, bird would not listen. He wanted things to change.

So things did change: bird would fetch the water & clean house, mouse would do the cooking, and sausage would collect the wood.

The next day, the sausage went out to collect wood, and a dog happened to see him and gobbled him up!

When sausage didn't return home in the evening, bird and mouse became worried. Bird went to look for sausage, and found the dog licking his paws.

"The sausage didn't have anyone's name on it!" responded the dog when bird asked him if he had seen sausage.

Bird returned home, and told mouse about sausage's death. Mouse wept, but decided that they had to go on living life as they had...

Mouse continued to cook dinner. As she passed herself through the stew, she burned off all her fur and skin in the hot water and died.

Bird came in the house to speak to mouse, but couldn't find her. He wept, but decided to go on living life normally...

Bird went to go fetch the water from the well. Unfortunately, when he tried to pull the bucket up, it was too heavy so he fell into the well and drowned.

And that, my friends, is why we do not ask for change.

FIN

current feelings:

2004-12-11T21:15:00.000-05:00

general malaise, unease, vague depression, meloncholy...

possible causes:

too much of the black bile
3 exams next week
singledom

lost frog?

2004-12-10T15:26:00.000-05:00

This Web site is hysterical: www.lostfrog.org

Check out all 100 slides...They're well worth it.

whoa

2004-12-09T20:20:00.000-05:00

Astrology.com said it best:

You're like Sherlock Holmes without a case -- all riled up intellectually with no place to go. Get some reading out of the way, or hit up your friends for some stimulating talk.

gosh...

2004-12-09T19:18:00.000-05:00

HA! Junky, googling skills can take you too far sometimes...

I found my Crush's online journal (albeit--it was for a course so it only has about 15 entries), but I was able to glean a lot of information from it...

My thought process was as follows......Why am I reading this? I'm psycho....But what does it say...Read on, DW, read on...

It's like reading someone's written diary and there being few consequences (guilt?).

Anyways, on the bright side, he seems really smart...one of those types who does readings and stuff...one of those types who reminds me about my under-utilized brain. Although his journal was for a course, at one point he discusses some movie stars, and he spells all their names incorrectly....Why do I know how to spell celebrities names? Because I spend time reading Entertainment Weekly instead of my readings.

a*c was just discussing how she didn't like a certain evil someone reading her blog...

am i an evil psycho-google-stalker?

Thwarted...

2004-12-07T15:36:00.000-05:00

Yesterday I realized that it's a possiblity that The Crush may be graduating this semester. Yet another crush dissolving before it's even begun.

Oh well.

I've finished all my assignments, and now I have to study for exams. I haven't really studied for an exam in four years. That was the beauty of majoring in English Lit...Read the books? You've done your studying.

Argh. How will I cope?

C'est tout.

Soooo....

2004-12-04T21:18:00.000-05:00

Watched Annie Hall last night. I love that movie. It's solid.

In other news, I've been doing a lot of assignments recently. They're all due this coming week, and after that I have exams. Man alive, this is the first time in four years that I haven't had a full month off during the winter break. Semestered classes suck.

I'll end up having less than two weeks off because I have a take home exam to do. Poo.

I saw The Crush (I think I need a nickname for him, don't I?) a few times this week. But I've never, ever gotten a chance to talk to him...There would be no natural segue. I mean, whenever I see him, it is in the computer lab...But I don't want to play an ass and ask for help or something. Ugh.

often replicated, never duplicated...

2004-11-30T15:57:00.000-05:00

So, yesterday I went to the James Brown concert @ Massey.
It was pretty cool, I can only hope to be as funky as James is when I'm his age. His dance moves are quite smooth, indeed.

I also found out that my dance moves are very similar to a back up singer's. It's very validating.

In other news, I think I'm officially crushing on this guy in my program. He's the only one who has caught my eye at all. He's in the IS stream.

I've been able to learn a lot about him. (Through Google, of course).
I've never spoken to him. (Of course.)
Although I did roll into him once with a rolly chair. He graciously accepted my apology. This incident occured pre-official crush.

Hmm. Maybe I should talk to him or something.
Argh. Argh.

hmm...

2004-11-24T23:48:00.000-05:00

I don't have anything to complain about...So...uhmn....Yeah.

You know what the greatest TV channel is?? The Food Network. It's amazing. The great thing about it is that you can tell yourself that it's educational, and because of that fact, spend as much time as you want watching it. Ahhhh.....Food porn.

Ladeda

2004-11-22T14:01:00.000-05:00

So, as Junky mentioned, I've been MIA (again). I couldn't think of anything to write.

On Friday, I sat at my computer for about 10 hours trying to figure out how to create a relational database on Microsoft Access for an assignment. Argh. What a frustrating program. But, I finally completed it (for now). Woo hoo.
If that doesn't make sensational blogging, I don't know what does...

In other news, I saw a former undergraduate classmate in Robarts today. She's doing her MA in English...She looked unhappy and drained. She complained about the level of competitiveness within her program.
Yikes. I hate that type of thing, and I can't believe it exists in English. It was never there during the undergraduate years...I don't think.

And here I am in library school, where all the budding librarians are so helpful! One of the students even gave my friend a binder of her past assignment so that we'd have better idea of how to do ours....Talk about kindness!

That's it for now.

Question...

2004-11-16T17:00:00.000-05:00

So, I'm back in happy single mode, where peace of mind reigns supreme, despite Saturday's reintroduction to the world of available men.

Junky, my current blog-muse, brought up the question of fixation recently...
And I'm wondering whether men fixate to the same degree females tend to...
That is, do men fixate and obsess over random women they don't know, if the woman, for some reason, proves to be intriguing....?

woe is me

2004-11-15T15:56:00.000-05:00

Junky was recently complaining about one of her group members, and I am suffering from a similar problem.

An individual in one of my groups is just so impossible. He's pretentious, and throws around phrases such as "everything is so Byzantine." And generally, fails to understand anything we try to communicate to him, and is completely uncompromising.

Why did he not leave our group when we gave him the opportunity? Why? Why? Why?

In other news, today when I was tutoring N. I gave him a quick lesson on Sierra's Laura Bow 2: The Dagger of Amon Ra.

I love that game so much! And N. (as usual) was such a great listener. I was describing the game and acting out scenes in between the spelling tests and explanations of indirect and direct objects.

I have to do some essay writing now. Poo.

i'm baaaaaaaack (maybe)

2004-11-14T18:42:00.000-05:00

Well, I have something semi-interesting to post about, so I thought I'd give it a whirl again. I don't know if posting will turn into a habit, but I'll admit, I do miss writing (to a certain extent).

So here goes...

Yesterday night, my best friend and I went up to Richmond Hill to go to some sports bar. It was one of her friend's birthday.

Now, since my masters program hasn't produced any interesting men (they're all quite older), there have been no crushes in the last little while...and I've recently been in an okay place where I'm thinking...Who cares...No bother...No rush...

Alas, alas, all was ruined when we went to the sports bar. First of all, we were suddenly approached in the line (Aside--WTF? Why was there a line-up for a sports bar in Richmond Hill?! Power hungry security guards, that's why!) by a guy I had thought was quite attractive when we initially line-up...Unfortunately, and I don't mean to be superficial, but whatever, he had this really odd high-pitched sort of boy-like voice.

Anyway, he was asking us all sorts of bizarre questions, including "When's your birthday?" which led to him discussing our signs. After I asked him his sign and he said Pisces, he said something horrific like, "I'll bet you have plenty of ex-boyfriends who are Pisceses." What on earth does that mean?

Anyway (again), when we got into the bar, one of the men sitting at our table had to be one of the hottest looking mixed individuals I have ever seen. He was even studying to become a primary school teacher...How do you like that?

I thought I'd have more to share, and something more interesting to write, but that's about it. Perhaps more will to occur to me in time. I did come to one conclusion though, it's really nice to be around nice guys...And given that I'm usually around no guys, going to this sports bar reignited my "I wanna boyfriend" thoughts, and squelched my "I'm inna good place" thoughts.

That sucks, because the next time I'll be seeing a bunch of nice guys will be...like...Never.

Motivation Lacking

2004-06-18T13:45:00.000-04:00

sigh

poof

2004-05-06T22:21:00.000-04:00

I'm disappearing for five weeks.

Godspeed.

my youth

2004-05-03T23:06:00.000-04:00

Where'd it go?

The last time I tutored N, I started talking to him about Super Mario Bros. 3. He wasn't especially impressed, but he likes my stories so he put up with my ramblings.

I gave him a brief lesson about the introduction of Super Mario Bros. 3 that occurred in The Wizard and some information on Teenage Mutant Ninja Turtles: The Movie.

He was kind of excited when I promised him I would bring in the booklet they gave out at the theatre when I first saw The Wizard, and my comic book from Teenage Mutant Ninja Turtles: The Movie. (I'm afraid I had to leave my The Wizard movie poster at home, but I did bring in a story I wrote in grade three entitled "The Nintendo Championships"--It was for a lesson on copyright infringement. ;) )

Anyway, as I was telling him about how amazing it was for me when I found out there was flying (FLYING!) in SMB:3, I realized what an old fart I've turned into. It was classic! N was so nonplused--"Uh. So what's the big deal, Teach?"

When did my past become so kitsch?

All in all, N enjoyed my lesson as he asked me whether I was passing down my paraphernalia to him. As if! He'd never appreciate those useless wonders as I do!

And another thing, it's no wonder I'm single--Clearly, I'm still living in 1990!

P.S. Did you know that Sam Rockwell played the Head Thug in the original Ninja Turtle movie?! Get out!

Raising Victor Vargas

2004-04-30T22:44:00.000-04:00

I finally got to see this movie...

It was beautiful. Absolutely beautiful.

Rent it. Now.

epiphany

2004-04-29T14:47:00.000-04:00

I've always genuinely thought that my inability to talk to boys I like was due to some social ineptness and shyness. However, I've finally come to the conclusion that my apparent disability in talking to boys I like is unfounded.

It's just my stupid overanalysis that bogs me down, as well as my spending too much time with my old standbys fear and panic. (You may know them...)

I'm pretty entertaining and hyperactive...I should have no problem talking to anyone.

I just have to stop overthinking everything and plunge in.

Why am I a crackpot? Why did it take so many years to come to this conclusion? Argh.

Consider this Breakthrough #1.